Seek the Truth with all your heart.
Christopher W. W. Ind - A long road of searching, exploring, discovering, learning, and realizing, to become Born Spiritually.
Why and how I became a ‘Born Again’ Christian.
I can see GOD’s hand in every step and detail of my many varied experiences and involvements in my search for spiritual meaning, so I will include them all.
I and my two brothers were brought-up well by our parents, We lived in a large old two storey family home named ‘Balmoral’, on my Father’s fruit property which had a long river frontage. It was a happy, healthy life with lots of activity, fresh fruit, fresh air, and fresh milk from a nearby dairy every morning.
We attended St Martin’s Church of England (Anglican) Church, in Paradise, where, as a young boy, I was an altar assistant, assisting the minister in the sanctuary, preparing communion according to the formality of the Church of England - now named the Anglican Church.
I always seemed to know, only subconsciously at first, that in many ways, in the bigger picture, things in this life were ‘just not right’, but I found myself in this world of compromised behaviour and worldly ways. I sensed that the world is a very dysfunctional place, and that its physical and operational mode, and way of life is a long way short of what it should be.
I was and still am a sensitive person. I was quite shocked when as a very young boy I first learnt that many people had to pay rent to landlords, who profiteered from them, by owning houses and renting them out to people who did not have their own homes, charging them as much rent as they could get away with; and I thought surely everyone is entitled to have their own home and their own independence, and not to be exploited.
I was seeking perfection in everything, and found only compromise; so I became drawn into accepting worldly ways of activity, which I thank GOD are now behind me. GOD has lifted me into HIS perfect awareness, HIS laws, and most of all into HIS kingdom. HE has shown me that perfection only exists in JESUS and HIM.
As a student at St. Peter’s College in year seven I got 97% for Divinity; but answering questions correctly did not give me relationship with GOD, or even bring me close to HIM; to me it was just academic history. We attended chapel service every morning, and had scripture lessons each week, but none of that brought me close to GOD, or even an awareness of relationship with Him. To me He was just a theoretical entity who I could not personally relate to. The Bible, to me, was just a book of ancient, historical stories.
At school I used to think ’Who would want to be a clergyman, how boring and unproductive,’ now I think the opposite.
The most important thing in this life by far is seeking relationship with GOD, and being sure of an eternal life of complete and absolute perfection.
What a privilege it is to lead people to eternal life. How magnificent to be involved in eternal things instead of temporary things.
The question was always in my mind, from a young age, as to why the fourth commandment, to keep holy the ‘seventh day’ Sabbath as a day of rest, was not observed by everyone, or even acknowledged, as were the principles of the remainder of the commandments; however my analysis of this is covered in a separate document: (‘The Sabbath’).
I now feel convinced of the significance of keeping the seventh day (Sabbath) holy, even after being involved in all the discussions, arguments and debates with people who see it differently and, I believe, use scriptures incorrectly without clear understanding, to back up their argument.
At certain times I had become temporarily convinced by their reasoning and decided that keeping it was not necessary; but, as I have experienced in many ways, GOD kept tugging on my heart and mind. Honouring and keeping the Seventh day Sabbath has given me a great sense of peace, together with the feeling that it is the right thing to do. There are strong lines of argument and reasoning about keeping it, or not keeping it, but truth finds its way.
At a very young age I wondered why we had to die, and the thought of death being followed by eternal non-existence; for us never, ever to exist again, really worried me.
As I grew, I continued to question why we exist as human beings, having amazing potential, multiple, amazing abilities, intelligence, and multiple facets of awareness; merely to exist, deteriorate and eventually die and remain dead and non existent forever. I knew deep within me that there had to be more to life than just coming into existence from nowhere, living for a while and then dying, to be dead forevermore.
I thought something is wrong, there has to be more to it, something is missing; and I had to find out what it was. My experiences and learning, to this point, had not answered my questions, so I decided I had to do my own searching.
I decided the first thing I had to do was find out whether evolution or creation was responsible for our existence. Did we evolve as the result of chance and random processes or are we the result of a planned, intelligent, incredibly well designed creation.? I looked into the theory of evolution in great depth, and found that it will only ever be a theory, because evolution is just a process of adaptation, a process within creation itself, allowing what is already in existence as a result of creation, to adapt to environmental circumstances to survive. It is a created process, and it is impossible for it to be responsible for creation itself.
After extensive study I came to the conclusion that evolution is only a process of adaptation which exists within what has already been created. I then realized that there must be a Creator, who must be GOD, who must be of infinite intelligence, and knowledge, vastly superior and greater than ours, and therefore there must be a point of absolute truth, a point at which everything has an absolute answer, where there is no debate, where truth cannot be relative, because if it is, it is free to be contradicted, and therefore to be cancelled out. I realized the pathetic futility of us human beings within our own limited reasoning, knowledge, understanding, and comprehension, trying to understand and explain everything, with so much existing outside and beyond any ability or resource to give us the answers. With our finite mind we cannot even comprehend infinity, we can understand what it means, but we cannot comprehend the reality of it. I realized that the Bible makes certain statements which are beyond our ability to prove, therefore we would have to exercise ‘faith,’ which is unquestioning belief.
(I have written a separate document on Evolution versus Creation.)
I was very disappointed when I first became aware that many girls were prepared to abandon their sacred virginity, their physical pureness, and sexual integrity, by having intimate relationships with boys. I sincerely believed that this was wrong and should not happen, because sexual intimacy was meant to be preserved for a permanent marriage.
I reflected on the significance of competitive sports, I did not enjoy body contact sports because this form of competition seemed unnatural and wrong, and often reaches the point of excessive roughness and even violence, which today seems to be accepted as normal.
I knew this was morally wrong, and thought that this is not the way things are meant to be. Even in non-contact sports where the winner might win by the narrowest margin, all the glory goes to the winner and the second place getter is considered a loser. I thought about other ‘principles’ of this world, such as business competition where it is considered that ‘competition is healthy,’ a concept that I have never been comfortable with, I could see that this did not promote co-operation, which is surely the way humanity should function. I used to consider the essence of competition and capitalism as being the expression of, or leading to, greed, selfishness, and opportunistic exploitation, all of which do, or can, lead to a very unbalanced society of extremes in both wealthy and poor directions. I have never had a strongly competitive ‘killer instinct.’ Everything seemed to be in a spirit of beating the opposition, even to the point of putting them out of business. I thought about the greed in the case of very large businesses, exploiting the public by mutually contriving to destroy competition, achieving dominance, and then manipulating prices. How can so called success, resulting from putting ‘competitors’ out of business, lead to a balanced quality of life.
This to me, all seemed unfair and ‘just not right,’ and added to my perception of a world operating on wrong principles and not the way GOD would want it to be. Surely peaceful co-operation, without manipulative collusion is better. Competition is really ‘war’ in business. I thought ‘why can’t the system work on some sort of co-operation, instead of a ‘dog eat dog’ type of system.? A business having to close down as the result of bad operation is understandable, but being forced out of business by aggressive competition was, to me, a highly unattractive state of affairs.
I was very conscious of the compromised condition of this world, with so much of life based on being either a victor or a victim, winner or loser; of so-called successful people having so much while so many others have so little; people exploiting others and profiteering from them in whatever ways they can. I realized that so much of life is unbalanced and imperfect in so many ways; and that this could not be the pattern of the ideal world which God must have intended, planned, and created it to be in His plan of perfection. I thought ‘If only the world would function on love, compassion, empathy, sympathy, trust, honesty, co-operation, goodness and integrity, it would be a good place to live.’
I never had a human hero. I always sought something or someone above humanity whose qualities I could truly admire and aspire to, relate to, and to be alike.
I set out to find a better way of life.
In all my searching for answers, I never became a devotee or member of any of the groups, churches or denominations I investigated. I participated in and with them, by way of curiosity, and investigation to find out what they were all about, what their beliefs and principles were, where they were heading, and what their purpose was; with my primary reason being to find GOD. Many churches, to me, just exhibited religious processes, which did nothing to bring me into touch with GOD. I saw it all as one dimensional anecdotalism; until I was truly born again and found the deeper, multidimensional meaning of it all, and could see and appreciate the significance and truth of the greater depth; even though still seeing most churches as lacking depth of teaching and relational meaning.
In all my experiences of searching I was seeking spiritual experience and meaning, hoping and wanting to find GOD. To me everything was meaningless unless I could find real purpose.
I spent two and a half years in the outback of Australia driving very long distances alone in a four wheel drive, covering a massive area as representative for The Shell Oil Company. I learnt to survive and keep going in extremes of weather and other tough conditions. (See ‘GOD-given travel experiences.’) This gave me a lot of time to reflect on life and all its aspects, and to ponder all the questions. I now know that GOD used that time and experience to shape me, lead me and position me for eventual relationship with Him, and for Him to be able to use me for HIS purposes. There were vast spaces and long distances which included, amongst others, the infamous 517 Km long Birdsville Track, which was just a sandy track through unfenced cattle country with only four of the homesteads visible from the track. I was on my own, there were no services of any kind, but I carried a radio transceiver on the Royal Flying Doctor network, water, food, car refrigerator, and spare fuel. I loved the remoteness, vast spaces and silence which allowed me to experience the time to virtually walk away from myself, and look back at myself, to analyse and question who and what sort of person I was, and how I came to be me, and therefore how humanity came to be, which I clearly realized could not possibly be by evolutionary random chance processes or accident. The incredible clarity of crystal clear nights, the increased vast number of stars visible, and the brightness and apparent closeness, inspired an awareness of incomprehensible grandeur and infinite distance; and that there must be an amazing Creator behind it all; an infinite GOD whose infinite knowledge and abilities made our finite ability to reason, analyse, and justify, relying on our own limited knowledge and restricted logic, seem pathetically inadequate.
I read extensively, including books such as ‘The Holy Blood and the Holy Grail’, after which I thought “Well so much for Christianity,” but I somehow knew that the book contained deception and that there was far more to it, and it is now apparent that GOD would not let me go. I continued to attend many meetings, gatherings, retreats, and seminars, and I looked into many different belief systems, disciplines, practices and philosophies.
I found Buddhism to mainly consist of philosophical meanderings, and a belief system of living a number of lives, to enable karmic debts to be paid off by good behaviour, eventually extinguishing all karmic debt; and entering nirvana, with no further purpose, eventually being extinguished, like a flame with no further purpose, and the eventual result of eternal non-existence.
This is completely pointless and opposite to Christianity, which leads to eternal existence in a perfect body in the Creator’s kingdom where everything will be absolutely perfect. Buddhism talks about inner peace. However inner peace is not possible unless one has peace of heart, mind and soul; and Buddhism does not recognize or acknowledge that people have a soul.
I investigated Sai Baba at some length, who made great claims of himself, and who’s ‘teachings’ also consisted of philosophical meanderings. I felt very uncomfortable about his devoted followers (devotees), kneeling, with their foreheads on the floor, facing a photo of Sai Baba. There were some amazing miracles, and I can now see that GOD was not letting me be convinced and fooled. Even before I knew GOD, I somehow knew it was not right to bow down to, and idolize, much less worship, any person. Right from school-days I could never identify with the way that people idolized certain sports people, and entertainers, and actors.
I mixed with the ‘Orange People’ and their guru Baghwan Shree Rashneesh, who had previously been a professor of psychology. I could see that he was trying to use reverse psychology by promoting excessive freedom of uninhibited living in every way, to teach people to eventually realize, from over indulgent experience, that the complete freedom of expression in every way including sexual expression; whatever, whenever, wherever, however, whoever; was a morally wrong life and the opposite to the moral life that should be lived; and therefore people would choose to revert to a desire for morality and decency and dignity.
He owned a large number of Rolls Royce cars, (mostly given to him by wealthy devotees), by way of mocking material possessions and, once again, saying in a reverse sense, ‘I have all this and it is irrelevant and really does not matter at all.’ He mocked possessions by having excess, including other excessive material indulgences. However most of the followers missed the whole point, especially the way he was trying to reveal it. I met some really nice people who were obviously searching for meaning. However I did not find GOD.
I also investigated Maharaji, whose lengthy, meandering, philosophical talks, I considered, were mostly pointless; and yet seemingly intelligent devotees were almost wholly consumed and entertained by his ramblings, responding with starry eyed laughter. Maybe their hunger for spiritual meaning drove them to attach some form of shallow significance to what they were hearing.
I investigated New-Age practices, and also the teachings of Muktananda, Paramahansa Yogananda, Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh, The Self Realization Institute, and other eastern philosophical Gurus and groups that pursued various beliefs.
At most of these different gatherings people were sitting like children on the ground, floor or chairs, almost in awe of the speaker, or a video of him, talking about the most simplistic, fundamental observations about life and people’s ways, to which they were responding in almost innocent child like laughter as though drinking in the wonderment of newly found revelation and awareness that were being opened to them. I was amazed at their almost hypnotic state of laughing response, which I could not even smile at. I found it all quite sad and frightening as I could see how people can so easily be drawn into certain mental states of thinking, responding, and acting.
I investigated philosophy which from my observations was also a generally aimless meandering of theorizing, hypothesizing, and pursuing various possibilities, which did not include acknowledgement of GOD. This exclusion left me feeling empty and realizing that it was not the path that I was searching for.
For some years I embraced New Age beliefs and practices. I investigated metaphysics and attended weekend metaphysical seminars. They were full of quasi science and philosophy. My observation in most of these groups was that they were like scenic routes which were also ‘no through roads,’ I saw them all as ‘dead end’ roads. I enjoyed philosophy as a mental exercise, or a type of game, but unless it added to the values of life, and was leading somewhere worthwhile, it was meaningless.
I was drawn in for a while but then realized that all this was generally pointless and meaningless in respect to my search for GOD; and that none of this was leading me to Him, or showing Him to me, so I moved on and left it all behind. During this time I also learnt about Shamanism, and witchcraft and the so-called differences between Black Witches casting spells and curses, and White Witches carrying out healings. I encountered ‘kundalini’ which I since believe has infiltrated some religious movements; and which I have witnessed many times in certain meetings in the form of uncontrolled physical movements and weird voice expressions which I felt uncomfortable about. I saw people doing things and holding positions which would have been impossible in the natural. Kundalini, in the concept of Dharma, refers to a form of primal energy said to be located at the base of the spine. It is also described as being a type of coiled snake energy. I believe it is all part of evil influence, possession, and agenda, irrespective of how people say they see it; so I removed myself from it all. It appeared clearly demonic, and was certainly quite different from the Holy Spirit given praying in tongues.
(There is much about the principle and practice of kundalini, and other practices, on the internet if anyone wants to investigate it so they can be informed, aware, and wary.)
I attended the Spiritual Church where demonic ‘familiar’ spirits would speak through a person to deliver a message, apparently from a dead person known by someone at the meeting. I received a convincing and encouraging message; however I discerned that it was a Satanic magnet to draw me in; so being very dis-enchanted with this, I turned away from it and moved on.
I investigated Silva Mind Control, Emotional Freedom Tapping, and a few others.
I attended some meetings of ‘The Immortalists Group’ which was founded in America. Participants based their philosophy on thought, attitude, focus, and lifestyle. I found it to be rather hollow wish-fullness, so my involvement was short-lived.
I learnt about many alternative and mystical involvements, which gave me insight into what people pursue in their quest for a better and more meaningful life. I learnt that anything that cannot be defined as part of GOD’s absolute truth, can, in many cases still be seen, in its context, as good; but I was seeking truth, meaning, and purpose behind the whole of life.
I learnt about numerology, astrology, certain types of meditation, voice toning and colour therapy, as types of healing and developmental modalities.
I met and participated with many people who have remained wise and focussed, and pursued their talents, passions, and qualifications, and have reached an epitome of excellence, recognition, and even fame. This all enabled me to observe that unless each person has a relationship with GOD through Jesus, it is all so very temporary in the bigger picture.
I participated in Iyengar Yoga for four years, which aims to unite the body, mind and spirit, but this just involved self focus, which did not give me the answers I was looking for.
I took part, for a short time, in different forms of yoga, one of which was quite unusual. However this was not the answer so I moved on.
I did lots of running which gave me lots of time for thinking. It is certainly a good way of creating clarity of thought as the things that do not matter fall away and the framework of what matters becomes clear. I ran the Adelaide half marathon in a good time, and also a full marathon. This proved to consist of meaningless highlights but no spiritual elevation or revelation.
I believe that GOD could see that these experiences would enable me to identify with and talk with people who were, or had been, involved in one or more of various belief systems and practices; thus enabling me to more easily discuss Christianity with them. I did not, at that stage, have GOD’s absolute truth, but I can see that HE, through HIS Holy Spirit, was clearly keeping me away from being trapped in deep involvement.
Another step in my search for meaning during this period, was my desire to get back to nature and my love of being natural and free, so in 1971, I initiated the interest and involvement for people to spread the word to use the southern end of Maslin Beach as a ‘freedom of attire’ beach, where people could choose to be naked. I wanted a beach to be available where I, and friends, and everyone else to whom the idea appealed, could be free to choose to not wear anything and to enjoy the wonderful freedom. I felt that maybe this original Adam and Eve natural innocence might be a doorway to the spiritual insight and experience I was seeking.
I decided that an application to council to set apart a long section of this attractive beach would probably be thrown out; so the only way would be for the idea to fulfil itself by successfully coming into existence as the result of the weight of large numbers of people participating. I promoted this by spreading the word for people to tell everyone they knew that the southern end of Maslin Beach was for naked freedom. Interest grew very fast and the huge number of people who responded to this showed the strong approval; and carried it into existence and acceptance. People could see the natural decency that existed.
As it had caught on so strongly, and by weight of its popularity, it was, in 1975, declared the first legally naked beach in Australia. This also showed me the incredible effectiveness of spreading an idea by word of mouth.
We all loved it, and I met many interesting academic, artistic, professional, business, eccentric, and eclectic people. Close friends, (a judge) and his wife and I were at the beach almost every weekend. They had a weekend cottage on several acres in a nearby valley where I often stayed. Other friends occasionally visited the beach in their boat. An attractive girl I met there became a good friend who I saw regularly, and we went out together a number of times. I encouraged her to apply to the Foreign Affairs Department to pursue what she said she would like to do but thought she did not have the confidence or qualifications to do so. She acted on my encouragement, studied economics, and became a senior attaché in the Australian Embassy in New York, with other sub-sequent postings. Many other good things came from connections made there.
I also met a tall attractive German girl there who was also searching for meaning and we attended many Bhagwan Shree Rashneesh meetings in their ‘all-living-and-sharing together-house.’ She eventually chose to buy a house in a rain forest at Nimbin in northern New South Wales. She invited me to stay with her, and during that time we attended a Hare Krishna wedding in a home in an attractive setting at Murwillumbah, which was a happy and colourful occasion with lovely happy people and a very enjoyable array of vegetarian food. Once again, their spirituality was not the answer to what I was looking for. I enjoyed all of this and met a great variety of people at Nimbin, including many intellectual and professional people who had decided to move away from the city rat-race, and repetitive convention, to a more appealing, alternative way of life which was colourful in its way, but I observed that it was also repetitive. There was a valley occupied mostly by ex-psychiatrists. All these things introduced me to many people who were searching, with their different ideas, and ways of experiencing so-called freedom, and dealing with what they saw as an unfulfilling, dysfunctional world.
However, even though I learnt a lot about people, none of this provided me with the answers I was looking for.
It was so good to see young families there all so naturally naked together, and sometimes the mother was quite obviously pregnant again, it really was all so wholesome and natural, and showed me that when everyone is naked together, with the same enjoyment of natural freedom; it created a great family type of natural, healthy atmosphere, a type of innocence, friendly respect and goodwill; an atmosphere of togetherness in common enjoyment and appreciation. It was quite unlike what all those who never went there, thought it would be like.
A French woman from Paris visited Maslin Beach while in Australia, was so impressed with the beach that she purchased a house on the esplanade and moved there permanently. I saw her many years later and was shocked to see that her love of the sun had ruined her former good looks, which had become very lined and weather beaten. This was strong evidence to me that as with many things in life, there is a balance, and taking anything to excess and extremes is not a good thing to do.
I have many enjoyable memories of beautiful weekends at Maslin Beach, and the atmosphere of warm friendliness. I remember beautiful warm, peaceful Sunday mornings, with a flat, calm ocean, and the blissfulness of it all.
However all this was a temporary aspect of my life, notwithstanding the wonderful memories.A time came when some people with a wrong attitude started coming to Maslin, and spoiled the innocence, natural feeling and atmosphere of it. So I decided it was time to leave it all behind, move on, and let that era settle in the past. My life had other priorities of my search for values, spiritual meaning, and my still needing and wanting relationship with GOD.
I have since heard that Maslin’s natural decency has returned.
One day at Maslin Beach a friend who was a dancer and had established a national Dance Theatre, was watching me run along the beach with another friend who became a Chief Justice in another country. When I returned to our group she said “I’ve been watching you run, you must come to my contemporary dance classes at ADT. Initially I declined but was talked into it, and then I thought ‘Well maybe this has a spiritual dimension to it and is a challenge that is meant to happen.’ I quickly got involved and enjoyed the challenge and involvement; and from that beginning I very soon moved to classical ballet, which I found to be a very appealing involvement of artistic excellence with several facets.
Still searching for some sort of spiritual experience, I studied and practiced classical ballet for eight years. There were many hours of learning, training, and rigorous rehearsing, sometimes in very hot studios during summer, but the love of involvement drove me onwards; with the underlying feeling that pursuing this artistic excellence would somehow help me find GOD and meaning.
With assertiveness, determination, and a vision of excellence, I trained hard, with two different ballet studios.
I had begun my training at a later age than usual which precluded joining a ballet company, but I gained strong favour with the directors and instructors who suggested I enjoy being in a minor role on stage in the Australian production of ‘Romeo and Juliette’ with the London Festival Ballet (now Ballet Company of Great Britain,) with the then world famous Russian dancer Rudolph Nureyev who choreographed that production and danced the part of Romeo. Rudolph was a brilliant dancer, and was very demanding of himself. I will also always remember the brilliant performance of Nicky Johnson, a principal English dancer, who danced the opposite part to Rudolph. I also enjoyed being in ‘Onyegin’ and ‘Sleeping Beauty’ with The Australian Ballet Company. I remember the brilliant performance of Jonathan Smith, who had been one of my teachers, who stood-in to dance the part of a soloist who was injured; his brilliant performance brought tears to our eyes as we stood watching from the stage wings. John Lanchbery a respected and talented conductor and composer, especially of ballet music, was the conductor for ‘The Australian Ballet’ at the time, a very likeable man with a great sense of humour. Ballet had strong appeal to me because it was a challenge of artistic and physical excellence, including the elements of presentation, control, timing, and expression. I somehow considered it to be a noble use of my body to help elevate me to higher awareness.
This eight years was a wonderful experience, and on one occasion in the ‘green room’ I had a strong thought that next time I lived I would start my ballet training as young as possible in life. This was immediately followed by the question ‘Is there a next time?’ Now that I know the truth, I know that such thoughts are meaningless, unless in the context of being resurrected to eternal life in GOD’s kingdom, in which case I will automatically have all the expertise I require. I found the world of ballet to be artistically exhilarating and far removed from the material, business world; and once again a wonderful experience. Ballet, like many things in this worldly life, can give a moment of exhilaration, but then it is gone forever, leaving nothing that is spiritually meaningful, fulfilling or eternal. A magnificent piece of ballet is like the presentation of a continuous chain of brief moments of memorable images of ‘paintings’ which are seen for a moment and then are gone, leaving only the memory. When rehearsing and performing, one felt the elevation of being involved in an oasis of artistic expression and excellence, which was so separate from the rushing world of commerce.
I loved the chance to see inside another way of life and experience a bit of another ‘world.’ I could clearly see that moments of glory, and many highlights in life, are fleeting moments which exist briefly and then are gone, leaving only the memory of them, maybe with a very temporary uplifted feeling of buoyancy, but eventually the feelings and the memories fade, leaving nothing; like life itself and so many things in it, they are here for a moment and then gone. Like a beautiful sunset, when it’s gone it’s gone, when it’s finished it’s finished, when it’s over it’s over. This is the reality of life on earth; this is the world we live in; but it is not the way GOD created it to be. (Please see: ‘New Heaven and New Earth.’)
The following scriptures capture what I have mentioned:
James 4:14 ‘Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist (vapour) that appears for a little while and then vanishes.’
King Solomon repeatedly summarized meaninglessness throughout Ecclesiastes.
Ecclesiastes 12:8 ‘Meaningless, meaningless, says the Teacher. Everything is meaningless,’ and in verse 13 ‘Now all has been heard; here is the conclusion of the matter: Fear GOD (‘fear’ meaning to have awesome respect) and keep His commandments, for this is the duty of mankind.’
Therefore a moment of worldly glory in any field of life is but a blink and then is gone forever. I found that ballet and ballet music were spiritually elevating and artistically inspiring, but did not take me to the altitude of relationship with GOD, for which I was searching.
There is no comparison between earthly highlights and eternal life in the eternal presence of GOD’s glory which never, ever ends. In eternity there is no beginning and no end. There can be no comparison between the finite and the infinite, such comparison is impossible.
In my travels to many countries in the world I was always searching for spiritual meaning which seemed to elude me.
I participated in advanced aerobic classes for many years with great enthusiasm, wearing 1Kg weight bands on my wrists and ankles and doing up to twelve classes per week.
I really drove myself as though exercising my body to the maximum would in a sense raise me mentally and physically to higher awareness and help reveal higher spiritual meaning.
During my years of searching I also did some acting with parts as Sir Lionel in ‘Camelot,’ and as Dr. Grimwig in ‘Oliver,’ with two theatre groups and was then approached by the South Australian Film Corporation to take part in film work which I enjoyed more than the theatre. This led to my being in fourteen different films, the most notable of which were: For The Term of His Natural Life, Breaker Morant, Sarah Dane, Last Wave and Sunday Too Far Away.
They then asked me to become available for full time work, however a well experienced actor, Jack Thomson, told me that there can be long droughts (breaks) between films, so I decided to concentrate on business matters. I found that acting was not spiritually fulfilling, did not supply any revelations and did not take me closer to the GOD I was seeking. Once again all these worldly highlights or moments of glory are ultimately meaningless.
I attended many metaphysical seminars and different ‘Christian’ denominations including Jehovah’s Witness, The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, also known as the Mormons, The Roman Catholic Church, Baptist Church, Uniting Church, Presbyterian Church, Lutheran Church, Christadelphian Church, the Seventh Day Adventist church, and Pentecostal churches, I learnt a lot and met some wonderful and well intentioned people but none of these gave me the awareness of knowing God. They only showed me different religions, denominations, formulas, traditions, rituals, doctrines and variations of belief systems; but not meaningful relationship with GOD. I wanted to really know that I knew GOD personally. I wanted true experience not theory.
I even attended a few meetings of an obscure group who believed that it was possible to live forever in our present physical body. They were named ‘The Immortalists’, and later renamed ‘The Eternal Flame’, a group based in America, who were obviously pursuing a fictional dream.
I questioned why people became so devoted to, and immersed in, such a varied array of philosophical, semi-religious and obscure interest groups which have their own set of beliefs and purposes. Maybe they have the need, like most of us, to have something to attach their identity and meaning of life to. I could see that most of these people were sincere in their beliefs, but that they could also have been sincerely wrong.
Most people I questioned and discussed things with, believed that ‘truth’ is relative, which of course leaves ‘truth’ open to contradict itself, and therefore to cancel itself out. So it cannot be truth, it can only be opinion, preference and choice, which cannot be absolute truth, except by coincidence. If these people also believe in evolution as the origin and reason for everything that exists; which any intelligent, deeply reasoning person has to reject; and that GOD is irrelevant or does not exist at all, then everything is just based on randomness, and therefore there cannot be a point of reference based on absolute truth.
I eventually decided and hoped that I might find GOD and truth in nature, so I went backpacking on weekends, but all I found was evidence of the Creator’s creation without finding the Creator Himself. It was like trying to meet, get to know, and form a personal relationship with an artist by looking at their paintings hanging in various galleries. They show evidence of the artist but not the artist them-self. Only meeting personally, spending time with, and getting to know the artist, will allow one to develop a relationship.
I arrived at the conclusion that nearly all the alternative, and mystical type, beliefs, practices, and philosophies might seem interesting and meaningful in various ways to so many people, who were obviously searching for meaning; but they are all Satanic diversions to keep followers, participants, and devotees pre-occupied, attached, and diverted from the true path of GOD’s Absolute Truth.
In everything I explored, participated in some as an observer, and became involved in others; I was looking and hoping for some kind of spiritual revelation, and hoping for it to be a step to greater realization.
There are only two options available to humanity. One is the broad road leading to destruction and eternal non-existence.
The other is the narrow road leading to eternal life of blissful perfection and amazing privileges and dimensions. Ref. Matthew 7:13-14 as below.
Home will be GOD’s Kingdom, and all who are in it will have the ability to travel anywhere in the total universe at the speed of thought.
Firstly we need to qualify to be resurrected after death, when Jesus returns to do this.
When I was driving home late on Sunday afternoons from Maslin Beach, or from a day of water skiing, I would see all the cars parked around the old Vogue Theatre on Belair Road, Kingswood, which I knew was the meeting place of ‘The Revival Fellowship’. I would think about such spiritual devotion on beautiful warm sunny days, when all I wanted was to be outside in the sun at Maslin Beach or sometimes water skiing. So after phoning the Revival Fellowship and finding that they also held meetings on Tuesday nights, I attended and found the talk to be one of the most interesting, intelligent and informative I had heard. I went again the following Tuesday night, and got baptised by full immersion (the Biblically correct way) but did not go back because they tried to make me speak in tongues. I thought that if tongues are the result of being filled with the Holy Spirit, I wanted the Holy Spirit; and if tongues were meant to follow, they would. I wanted the ‘cause’ first and if the ‘symptom’ was a manifestation of a spiritual tongue, then that would follow.
So I left there and continued on my search. I wanted relationship with God, not religion, religiosity, different doctrines, traditions, or ritual.
(After I became born again, thirteen years later, as told further on, I got baptised again about three years after that in another Pentecostal church, after having spent two of those years back at ‘The Revival Fellowship.’ I realized that I needed to make a fresh declaration and commitment after having gone ‘walk about’ again for so long in my searching.)
I did lots of running, and ran in many 12 Km City to Bay runs, I ran in a full marathon, and also ran a good time in the ‘Adelaide Half Marathon.’ I found that while I was running or walking, my thoughts became clearer. If something was worrying me, or I had matters which required thought and analysis, I found that all the details that did not matter just melted away and I was left with a clear picture of the bones, the framework, of what did matter, which would allow a clear answer to emerge, in which I was always searching for the backing of GODly wisdom and spiritual meaning.
Another God given step was when I purchased a property in Unley for my offices, and in the courtyard there was a ‘Just Joey’ rose which I wanted to know how to prune, so I joined the Adelaide Rose Society to learn. As a result of being a member I received an invitation to an art exhibition of rose paintings in a little gallery, where I saw a particularly beautiful group of paintings with the artist’s name being Dianne D., who I had met some years earlier at my brother’s end of year office party, and we had seen each other several times after that. I phoned her to see if indeed it was her and to say how I admired her paintings. I found that she had become a born again Christian, so we often met to talk about Christianity, about being filled with God’s Holy Spirit and praying in tongues. On one occasion I went with Dianne and another woman, Bev H., who had the gifts of healing and prophecy, who I had also met some years earlier; and I accompanied them to witness their praying with a woman who needed to be delivered from a demonic spirit, which she herself knew had invaded her. I could see it was real because as they were praying assertively in Jesus’ name to cast out this spirit, this gentle dignified woman’s voice changed to a gruff male voice and the spirit came up and lodged in her throat literally trying to choke her. They had a bucket for her to vomit it into, but it would not come out and they eventually had to let it return to the inner part of her body, and her normal voice and composure returned. It was frightening to witness, and I now know that such things are real and I have heard other stories about revolting slimy green apparitions being cast out and scattering off out of sight. I was hesitant to include this story, but it was part of my journey, and it showed me that demonic spirits are real.
I found that GOD has placed a type of hunger for meaning and identification and a sense of a hidden eternity inside everyone, a void that only HE can fill.
None of my searching had revealed anything that filled my spiritual void.
GOD found me. I feel like saying that we found each-other, or that HE revealed HIMSELF to me. Looking back I can now see clearly that GOD was gently drawing me to HIMSELF, from a very young age. I now have new and changed priorities.
My total searching took place over about 30 years, and eventually I decided that none of it so far had given me the answers I needed, or of knowing the Creator or even of any personal awareness of GOD, so I stopped all my searching. I never became a devotee of, or overly involved with, any of these religions, philosophies or practices. In all of the searching I was an observer, a searcher looking for the source of truth, and wanting to have a relationship with our Creator, wanting Him to show me and reassure me by giving me the ‘knowing in my heart’ of His presence, of what is right and wrong, true or false, how I should be living, and the true path to eternal life where death does not exist.
In early 1993 I ceased all my searching, attending different philosophical new age courses, seminars, and retreats, and attending all the different denominational Christian churches where I only found man made religiosity in religious traditions and ritualistic services. I thought “Well I have tried to find GOD, and I can’t, and I don’t know what more I can do.”
On 17th August 1993 at 2.51 pm I was driving along Unley Road and I just thought “I could die at any time, and I still have not found GOD,” so with my fist I thumped the steering wheel with assertion (not anger), as I said “Right GOD, I have been looking for you everywhere but I can’t find you. You are either there or you are not there. I know I can ask for your Holy Spirit to fill me, and to be given the ability to pray in tongues of the Spirit, and I want it right now, and I’m serious,” and I thumped the steering wheel again. I immediately started singing in a French-like language, and I thought: ‘I’m glad no one can hear me now, they’ll think I’ve lost the plot;’ and this was accompanied by GOD given realization that this was a tongue of the spirit, which GOD had given me, and I sensed GOD’s presence and His words “Well at long last you have asked Me to find you, and here I am, I have been here the whole time.”
Acts 17:27b ‘--- GOD is not far from each one of us.’
I sensed HIS knowing that my whole hearted, sincere desire was to know HIM, and that HE had filled me with HIS Holy Spirit and had instantly changed me.
I experienced being lifted above the dirty brownish, moral, physical, and general pollution of this compromised, fallen world; into crystal clear air where I could see everything so clearly. GOD gave me one breath of the pure, sweetest atmosphere of Heaven. I could smell the exquisite, beautifully clear, clean, fresh, and delicately perfumed fragrance of heaven. An exquisite gift from GOD which I wished would continue.
One cannot be aware of the dullness of this world and life on it, until one experiences GOD’s crystal clear purity and magnificence of heavenly perfection.
I am reminded of: Ephesians 5:2 ‘Live a life of love, just as Christ loved us and gave Himself up as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to GOD.’
Maybe it was a touch of that fragrance. What amazing grace and favour; I once was lost but now I am found.
(I have to say here that, because many people including Christians question the whole thing of tongues, one is left with the feeling that one needs to justify having this gift.
The only answer one can give is to refer these people to 1 Corinthians 14:2 & 14 -15. and suggest that they read the words several times, slowly and thoughtfully; and not be influenced by others trying to put different meanings to it, and trying to explain it out of the way. Praying in tongues is praying to GOD in the spirit. Tongues certainly add depth to one’s prayers and relationship with GOD. Interpretation is only required if tongues are prayed aloud in a church meeting, otherwise it is between you and GOD. Many people want to discredit this ‘gift.’
Some tongues, like everything else, can be false - a type of counterfeit. I have asked GOD many times to confirm that this is from HIM, or if not, to take it away. He has always confirmed the legitimacy of the gift.
(Please see the subject: ‘Tongues of the Holy Spirit.’)
It was as though GOD allowed me to go deeply enough into these different belief systems to understand them, but no further, because my true answers still lay ahead. Everything apart from Christianity focussed either on ones-self or man-made philosophy.
I was seeking answers beyond myself and the things of the world, to a great loving Father GOD and to be able to look forward to eternal life in HIS Kingdom of magnificent, eternal perfection, far beyond our present imagination.
Isaiah 64:4 ‘Since ancient times no one has heard, no mind has perceived, no eye has seen any GOD besides YOU, WHO acts on behalf of those who wait for HIM.’
From that moment on I continued seeing this life and world in a far clearer light and perspective. Having GOD’s perfection and eternity in my heart and mind, put my observation of this life and its relative values, into sharp focus. I am constantly aware of the contrast between this highly compromised world and GOD’s eternal kingdom.
Philippians 1:6 ‘Being confident of this, that He (GOD) who began a good work in me will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.’
I felt settled, connected, and content, and aware that 90% of my previous thoughts, values, and ways of life of the person I had been, literally dropped dead, and were replace with new values.
Since learning of the following scriptures I can really appreciate their significance in, and to, my search:
Deuteronomy 4:29 ‘But if from there you seek the LORD your GOD, you will find HIM if you look for HIM with all your heart and with all your soul.’
Psalm 40:1 ‘I waited patiently for the LORD; HE turned to me and heard my cry.’
Psalm 145:18-19 ‘The LORD is near to all who call on HIM, to all who call on HIM in truth. HE fulfils the desires of those who fear HIM; He hears their cry and saves them.’
Proverbs 8:17 ‘I love those who love ME, and those who seek ME find ME.’
Jeremiah 29:13 ‘And you will seek ME and find ME when you search for ME with all your heart.’ What a blessing.!!!
Luke 11:9-10 “So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; whoever seeks finds; and to those who knock, the door will be opened.”
2 Corinthians 5:17 ‘Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come.’ (= Born again = a spiritual birth from above.)
Galatians 2:20 ‘I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of GOD, who loved me and gave HIMSELF for me.’
I experienced immediate and very clear change, the ‘old me’ died, and I was spiritually ‘born again’ with a new spirit. I was transformed into a ‘new creation.’ This experience was as significant to me as Paul’s experience on the road to Damascus. I realized that life from then on is a constant process of pursuing pure living, seeking more and more of GOD, and continue dying (overcoming) to my old ways and the ways of the world.
I supernaturally started speaking in a French-like language, as a gift of the spirit, and I initially thought: “I’m glad no one can hear me now, they’ll really think I’ve lost the plot,” which was followed immediately by realization that this was a tongue of the Holy Spirit. GOD then gave me two crystal clear revelationary mental visions:
The first ‘visionary knowing’ was that men and women should not be having an intimate sexual relationship before marriage. Sexual Intercourse is the most intimate expression of love between a man and a woman in a fully committed, bonded husband and wife ‘one flesh for life’ relationship. Any other use of it is just plainly wrong. I was still in a relationship with a gorgeous woman and I was feeling very uncomfortable and guilty with our unmarried intimacy, and she wanted to live with me without marriage. It was unfair of me to be inflicting my heavy guilt on her when she could not understand clearly why I was experiencing such guilt; she could not see it the same way, and did not want to explore or know about Christianity. I knew that I could not continue living that way, so even though we continued the relationship for a further four months, we finally had to mutually end it because my relationship with GOD had so permeated my life, and was my first priority.
A few weeks after that, when I was looking through my kitchen window into my garden, I asked GOD to take sexual drive away, and I clearly felt it lift away from me, just like something lifting away with a ‘whoosh’ and flying out the window, leaving me feeling lighter and clearer with a great sense of unburdened freedom and cleanliness, and knowing that GOD will restore all natural functions when it is time to do so.
I felt so very close to GOD, and truly wanted to live in complete keeping with GOD’s principles and purity in every way. I had so wanted to transcend human conditioning, human limitation, and the prison of physical desires in its many forms; and I now experienced this freedom.
The second ‘visionary knowing’ was that telling lies was wrong and that GOD’s people should only ever tell the truth, and GOD would look after the outcome. In business I had occasionally ‘redesigned the truth’ to suit the outcome I wanted. A business associate had said that this was a part of being a successful businessman, but I had felt very uncomfortable about it; especially with my conscience telling me that I already knew it was wrong.
(The only ‘exception’ of course, involves wisdom and discernment on those occasions when it would hurt or offend someone by being blatantly, hurtfully blunt and undiplomatically frank in personal conversation; such as when grandmother says “I look terrible in this old dress, don’t I?”).
To both these revelations from The Lord, I felt immense comfort, reconciliation with truth, and my conscience saying to me “You always knew that, but you have been justifying your own lifestyle.”
I immediately recognized that my conscience had always been prodding me and trying to guide me in these matters, but I had ignored it, and continued to justify my own lifestyle and ways of doing things.
I then knew the meaning of being ‘born again’, because my old self with its secular, worldly values and not knowing GOD, literally died. It was a spiritual re-birth, a new me. I experienced a release and an opening up of new values, of knowing God, of TRUE freedom and an open path to Truth and GOD’s eternal kingdom. I had a real sense of assurance of ‘at long last being in relationship with GOD and having a great sense of peace and of GOD’s presence and guidance.’ As time passed I knew that through the Holy Spirit and my relationship with Jesus I had access to all the blessings of heaven, but only according to GOD’s Will, and my receiving them through belief and faith. I also knew that GOD really is my Creator and spiritual FATHER, and Jesus, the Messiah, my Saviour and totally reliable, loving and loyal best friend. I knew that I was truly ‘born again’ and filled with the Holy Spirit.
My tongue of the Holy Spirit is a gift and a blessing which enables me to flow in prayer throughout every day in my spirit, as well as my understanding. It completes the whole dimension of my relationship and communication with GOD, which I would not have without it. It is a beautiful spirit to spirit communication with GOD. When I run out of words of understanding I can flow on in my spirit; giving my relationship with God greater dimension, intimacy and fullness; whether my prayers are of praise, thanks, requests or intercession; GOD knows what my spirit is praying and HE applies it according to HIS Will. It is the purest form of prayer, free from, and beyond the constraints of normal language. A spiritual overflow, a yearning to be in touch with GOD’s Holy Spirit, an extension of prayer into a deeper realm.
The flowing scriptures give meaning to my experience:
1 Corinthians 14:2 ‘For anyone who speaks in a tongue does not speak to men but to GOD. Indeed no one understands him; he utters mysteries with his spirit.’
1 Corinthians 14:15 --- I will pray with my spirit, but I will also pray with my mind; (my understanding) ---
I ceased from drinking alcoholic drinks, from using any swear words at all, words that are even suggestive in any unsuitable way, even the words ‘golly’, ‘gosh’, ‘geewhiz’ and others which stem from the names of GOD and Jesus. I also became chaste, (not celibate, because that is to intend to not marry), I intended the God designed state of marriage to happen when it is meant to do so. The old me died and I became a new person in Christ, very much knowing that Christ Jesus was now in me and I was now in Him. My old ways and the old me dissolved and are now in the past.
John 14:20 Jesus said “On that day you will realize that I am in My FATHER, and you are in Me, and I am in you.”
Galatians 2:20 ‘I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of GOD, who loved me and gave himself for me.’
The process is ongoing every day, growing more and more in the Holy Spirit, dying more and more to myself and to the world, having greater clarity, forgiving everyone for everything, confessing to GOD, and with the help of the Holy Spirit, rejecting and casting out anything and everything that becomes revealed and apparent to me that I need to ‘die to’ (be rid of), which includes all ‘worldly ways’, and anything that compromises GOD’s values. The Holy Spirit continuously leads and adjusts me in correct living.
It was as though GOD let me search all the roads that I had done so, because HE knew it would later allow me to easily discuss Christianity with anyone from other backgrounds and experiences.
I came to realize that although I had found GOD, it was only through what GOD had done through Jesus that I had any right and access to be restored to eternal life (forever and ever, never ending) in GOD’s eternal Kingdom, in heaven and the new earth. Incredibly magnificent.
When we do not die to ‘self’ each day, we are walking in the ‘flesh’, and not in the ‘Spirit’, being led by our carnal nature instead of GOD’s Holy Spirit. It was apparent that GOD had let me search along many different roads of experiences, involvements, philosophies, beliefs, practices, new age ideas, and different religions, knowing that the experiences would enable me to talk comfortably to anyone with such background.
I now seek innocence and purity in GOD’s Kingdom, and I am looking forward with indescribable enthusiasm and awe, to eternal life in GOD’s eternal kingdom of perfection and bliss.
The following scriptures are now rich in meaning for me:
1 Corinthians 15:31 --- ‘I die daily.’ (To the ways of the world and the old me.)
Galatians 2:20 ‘I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live but Christ who lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of GOD who loved me and gave Himself for me.’
2 Corinthians 3:18 ‘But we all, with unveiled face, beholding as in a mirror the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from glory to glory, just as by the Spirit of the Lord.’
1 John 2:15-17 ‘Do not love the world or the things in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the FATHER is not in him. For all that is in the world --- the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life --- is not of the FATHER but is of the world. And the world is passing away, and the lust of it; but he who does the will of GOD abides forever.’
The ‘new me’ became aware of new values, new priorities and a meaningful relationship with GOD. I progressively learnt who Jesus really was and how he had come to earth as GOD in human form to introduce GOD’s Kingdom to us, pay the penalty of death, that if we were left to that inevitability, would never live again, so he did it for us and defeated death so that only through him could we receive forgiveness and attain eternal life in our Father’s Kingdom. When Jesus ascended back to heaven he sent the Holy Spirit (The comforter --- the Spirit of GOD) to be our guide, to be there for us to call on, and to bless us in so many ways.
It was when I stopped searching for GOD in all the ways and places I was hoping to be able to find HIM, and became assertively determined about asking HIM to find me, to enter my life and transform me, that HE did so and I became changed forever.
I am so mindful and appreciative of what Jesus said in these wonderful scriptures:
John 3:3 Jesus said “I tell you the truth, no one can see the kingdom of GOD unless he is born again.” (Meaning a spiritual re-birth of being born from above into GOD’s kingdom.)
John 6:44 “No one can come to Me unless the FATHER who sent Me draws them; and I will raise them up at the last day.”
John 8:32 “And you shall know the truth and the truth will make you free.”
John 14:6 “I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life. No one comes to the FATHER except through Me.”
John 15:16 “You did not choose Me, but I chose you.”
This scripture is also a blessing:
1 Timothy 1:14 The grace of the Lord was poured out on me abundantly, along with the faith and love that are in Christ Jesus.
I yielded entirely to GOD. Since then I have experienced a great sense of peace, spiritual fulfilment, continuing revelation, and closer relationship with GOD. He is there all the time and I am able to talk to HIM about anything at any time. I feel so free from the bondage of temptation and wrong living. Jesus said that his followers were to be in this world but no longer of this world. Romans 12:2 James 4:4 1John 2:15 Since then I have felt very separate from the ways of the world and fleshly living. This is the beginning of a process of ongoing change and of becoming progressively less attached to the world and its ways, and developing a progressively growing relationship of becoming closer to Jesus and GOD. My previous priorities changed to GOD being my first priority in everything; and material things and ways of the world becoming less important. I now desire to please HIM in every way, which of course is a progressively ongoing process. Jesus and GOD dominate my mind and thinking; and the Holy Spirit has renewed my mind. (I have written far more about the state of being in relationship with GOD, under ‘Relationship with GOD.’)
I am now a stranger passing through this very compromised, fallen world, on my way to the New Jerusalem --- my home in heaven. I live here but I belong to GOD’s kingdom, I am no longer of this world, I am now restored to GOD’s perfect kingdom. I now have eternity in my heart, and my vision extends into eternity with GOD.
I am so very reassured to know that I can be sure of salvation and eternal life, as is said in the following scripture:
1 John 5:11-13 v13 --- ‘I write these things to you who believe in the name of the Son of GOD so that you may know that you have eternal life.’
An amazingly wonderful story.
I attended a talk In South Australia, in the St. Peters town hall, given by Jonathan Gray. The subject was about Ron Wyatt’s discovery of the Ark of The Covenant in Jerusalem in 1982. Jonathan Gray questioned Ron Wyatt’s discovery of the Ark of the Covenant, as well as other key Christian discoveries, but the Ark of The Covenant was the main focus.
Ron was working as a nurse anaesthetist in a hospital in Madison, Tennessee, America, and was a very keen amateur Biblical Archaeologist, who spent all the time he was able to devote to his searching and confirmation of key Christian sites in the Middle East.
Jonathan was also a very keen amateur Biblical Archaeologist, and set out to prove that Ron’s claims were false, and after much searching and questioning came to the eventual conclusion that they were 100% legitimate.
When I heard the details of the main significance of the discovery, I felt what was like a million cosmic volts pass through me. I immediately knew I wanted to become involved in helping Jonathan in publishing the book ‘The Ark of The Covenant ‘ which he had written. I proof read it and notated my corrections and suggestions for improving the wording. This book is well worth reading, and explains GOD’s blood sacrificial system, which was in operation for four thousand years until it was fulfilled when Jesus became the Lamb of GOD.
Dried blood samples were discovered, which in the light of all the factors and details, were assumed to be from Jesus’ when He was on the cross of crucifixion; which other discovered factors indicated convincingly, was directly above this grotto.
As part of my research to confirm a major factor in the story of the discovery, I spoke with Professor Tom Loy at the Brisbane University, one of the few experts in identifying DNA in ancient blood samples, who was able to confirm that a 2000 years old dried sample of blood which had been hidden underground in constant darkness and stable atmosphere, protected from the elements, and from any interference at all, could be rehydrated in a pathological laboratory, and for the autosomes and chromosomes to be identified.
Background technical details of human blood which highlight the significance of the discovery.
There are two copies of each autosome (chromosomes 1–22) in both females and males. The sex chromosomes are different: There are two copies of the X-chromosome in females, and males have a single X-chromosome and a Y-chromosome. Only the male – the father - can provide the Y chromosome to determine the child to be a male.
Autosomes are numbered chromosomes that contain genes for anything that does not relate to sex determination. Humans have 22 pairs of autosomes = 22 from the mother and 22 from the father – each numbered 1-22 = 44 in total. These numbers indicate the size of the autosome - chromosome 1 is the longest, and chromosome 22 is the shortest.
In humans, each cell nucleus contains 23 pairs of chromosomes, a total of 46 chromosomes. The first 22 pairs are called autosomes. Autosomes are homologous chromosomes i.e. chromosomes which contain the same genes - regions of DNA - in the same order.
Females have two copies of the X chromosome, while males have one X and one Y chromosome. In humans, each cell normally contains 23 pairs of chromosomes, for a total of 46. Twenty-two of these pairs, called autosomes, look the same in both males and females. The 23rd pair, the sex chromosomes, are different between males and females.
The amazing revelation from this proves that, as the Bible says, GOD’s Holy Spirit impregnated Mary, Jesus’ mother; and GOD alone could provide the necessary ‘Y’ chromosome which determined that Jesus would be a male. This proves that Mary’s conception with Jesus was supernatural.
A pathological laboratory in America analysed those dried blood samples, and identified that Jesus blood had only one set of autosomes, showing conclusively that Jesus did not have a human father. GOD, PERONALLY, arranged it this way. Jesus blood had one sex deciding ‘X’ and one ‘Y’. The ‘X’ came from his mother, Mary, and the ‘Y’ came from GOD.
The laboratory in America insisted on confidentiality and remaining anonymous because of the likelihood of a flood of enquiries, questioning, and the possibility of unwelcome accusations.
An interesting coincidence occurred at a 2018 Christmas Eve dinner at the home of a Gold Coast friend – Cecilia – whose daughter Sara had been an archaeology student of Professor Tom Loy’s, and was able to tell me of the wonderful man he was and that he had died some years ago.
Ron Wyatt had sky blue eyes that were full of awareness and expression and appeared to be seeing into ones very being. On the three occasions I met with him in conversation, he was always teary and emotional when we discussed Jesus’ blood and the whole significance of Jesus having made Himself sacrificially available to suffer humility, shockingly bad treatment followed by death by crucifixion, all on behalf of fallen humanity, to open the door for us to return to GOD’s family.
Many people have doubted Ron’s discovery because of the lack of evidence. He told me that he had videoed the inside of the grotto and the contents of the Ark of The Covenant, and as he was about to leave the grotto he heard GOD’s instructions to leave the camera and film in the grotto, which he immediately did.
Later on I set up a four party phone call with me and someone else in Australia, and Ron and someone else in America. During that conversation Ron said “I know the punishment for all liars, and if I am lying about my discovery, I expect to be one of the first to be thrown into the lake of fire.”
In 2000, I and two Christian friends, Denis and Michael, visited the Middle East, which included Greece, Turkey, Iran, Syria, Jordan, Egypt, and Israel. I took a metal detector so we could try to detect any metal parts on the said site where Noah’s Ark came to rest in the Mount Ararat region of Eastern Turkey. We did not find any because the site had been thoroughly searched and bits souvenired over the years.
In Jerusalem we spent time in the Garden Tomb area, which is outside the City Wall on the western side not far from the Damascus Gate, where the empty tomb is, and the site of the crucifixion. The Garden Tomb area is British owned and is maintained very well by English people who take it in turns to stay there and tend it.
I found it to be a wonderful experience to be where it all happened.
We also visited Nuweiba Beach Egypt, a rather lonely place, which was the sight of the emergence of the over a million Israelites having just crossed through the Red Sea that GOD had enabled by parting the waters. Moses was leading them out of slavery in Egypt, and at GOD’s command he raised his staff - bringing the waters crashing down on to the pursuing army led by Pharaoh, destroying them all.
We tried scuba diving in 30 metres of water on the crossing site where there are still coral covered remains of chariot wheels, and horses shin bones. However the water was very stirred up and too cloudy to see anything that day.
Ron Eldon Wyatt Born: 2 June 1933
Ron Wyatt’s statement within weeks of his death: https://jonah135588.wordpress.com/2008/10/22/deathbed-confession-of-ron-wyatt-discoverer-of-the-ark-of-the-covenant/
Humanity was cut off from that world of eternal life in GOD’s perfect kingdom, because of Adam and Eve’s disobedience to GOD by their being influenced by Satan’s evil, deceptive influence.
GOD is the life giver. We have allowed ourselves to be cut off from Him; so now we die, just as GOD said we would if we did not follow His instructions. GOD sent Jesus to re-open the door to heaven and to show us how to return to GOD’s eternal kingdom and endless perfect life; but only for those of us who seriously choose it.
Relationship with GOD and the associated changes are a grand leap forward in my life, however it is an ongoing life-long process and experience of learning and living GOD’s desires and plans for us, and HIS Kingdom, HIS Truth, and all of its elements and principles, and of now knowing that through Jesus we belong to GOD and are part of HIS Kingdom. When we have accepted this relationship, we are no longer our own, as these scriptures say:
1 Corinthians 6:19-20
‘Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from GOD.? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honour GOD with your body.’
2 Corinthians 5:17 ‘Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, they are a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come.’
A few weeks later, just before going to sleep I said to GOD that it would be really good if HE could fix an oil painting that had been damaged, and the next day I was amazed to find that it was restored perfectly. A miracle that a human being could not possibly have done. GOD had shown me that there is no limitation to what HE can do.
Several weeks later on a Saturday morning on Norwood Parade I ran into Peter, a nursery owner I used to often see at the gym; and while we were talking under a gum tree on the median strip, about plant pathology and man’s patenting of new hybrids, Peter said “The Lord made it all, what right does man have to claim it?” while gesturing with his hand towards the tree above us. I asked “Are you a born again Christian?” and he replied “I certainly am.” I asked what church he attended and he said “The Adelaide Revival Centre,” to which I replied “I got baptized there thirteen years ago, I will come back.” Peter said “Praise the Lord.”
I attended for two years, 1994-95, and left because of their strict legalism and distorted judgementalism which I and others considered too restrictive and intrusive: it actually almost suffocated one’s personal relationship with GOD. When I left, I felt a spiritual obstacle dissolve, and a restored clarity with GOD, and realization that the Revival Fellowship pastors had been getting between me and GOD. However I appreciated what I learnt over that time, together with the many people I got to know, several of whom I have remained in close touch with to this day. I have found that there is great connection when I have visited other churches and have caught up with ex-Revival Fellowship people there.
For some time friends and acquaintances thought I was boring because I stopped talking about new age type subjects, philosophy and types of mysticism, which they found very interesting. So it took me a while to build up a new repertoire of Biblical and Christian subjects until they once again found my conversation interesting, in an infinitely more meaningful way; except for those who did not want to hear about or discuss GODly matters; so I continued to pray for those people.
GOD utilized my tongue for HIS purpose on a few occasions, and in one particular case, by setting up a completely unexpected situation which caused me to return to a church which I had decided was in error and had intended not to return to. During the service there was a time of complete supernatural silence, which GOD had obviously brought about, during which HE led me to speak in a tongue. I was waiting for someone to interpret, and then realized, as a type of heat came on me, that it was to be me, so I opened my mouth, and without knowing what I was going to say, I began to speak and the words which followed, in English, were to warn the congregation to not follow false teachings, to not listen to anyone saying that GOD had told them things which they were not to tell others. I’m sure GOD also meant it to warn the pastor of the error of his claim that GOD had given him the precise date and time of Jesus’ future return, and that he was not to share it with anyone else.
The Bible clearly states that no person will know beforehand, not even the Son (Jesus,) until the time comes for the FATHER to send Him, which that pastor had spoken about in the past. I left that church because of the pastor making such a false claim.
After discussing his statement with him, and next day with his two elders who used their own reasoning to support him, I have not returned to that church since the above experience which GOD had obviously set up to use me to deliver the rebuke. There was no reaction to this, and months later his wife invited me to revisit their church, but I never did so.
I wanted to be able to worship GOD with an excellent singing voice so I began opera singing lessons for a year with Agim Hushi. Several European opera companies convinced him to return to Vienna where he was one of the most sought after tenors in Europe. So my voice training remained in limbo.
I have attended many different Pentecostal churches over seventeen years and became quite involved in some of them. I spent nearly a year not attending any church at all because I felt I needed space, however I certainly did not turn away from GOD one little bit, and being blessed with many Christian friends, I was always discussing GOD together with different ones and reading the Bible every day. I have been sincerely seeking GOD’s truth and Biblical understanding wherever I can find it being taught. I had been attending the Seventh Day Adventist Reform Church and was at an SDA Ancient Mysteries Seminar of 20 talks where I re-met SDA Pastor Wolfgang Stefani who invited me to come to the Adelaide City Church, which I did and have remained there. We had met ten years earlier. I am now with The Seventh Day Adventist Church where I have found the understanding, interpretation and teaching of The Bible and its amazingly deep and accurate prophetic writings, to be the best I have encountered.
A leaflet received in my letter box when I was living at Parkside, advertised a series of talks on healthy eating and living at the Unley Town hall meeting room, which I attended, and which began a relationship with The Seventh Day Adventist Church and Pastor Ray Stanley and his wife of the Angas Street, Adelaide City Church, which I attended for some time, and then returned to Pentecostalism. I attended there again later for a short time when Pastor Will Grobler took over, then I went back to a Pentecostal church. When pastor Wolfgang Stefani took over in 2002 he contacted me and we had several get togethers, however I stuck to Pentecostalism until late 2009 when I then decided that I would not bother with any particular church for about a year.
I certainly stayed close to GOD and often met with other Christian friends, and together we discussed scripture, and prayed, and praised GOD. In mid 2011 at a series of talks named ‘Ancient Mysteries’ by Gary Webster at the Norwood Town Hall, I was re-united with SDA Church Pastor Wolfgang Stefani when he recognised my voice behind him, and I returned to the Adelaide city SDA Church. After further Bible studies as part of their thorough pre-baptism preparation; Wolfgang baptised me in the Name of ‘The Father, the Son the Lord Jesus Christ, and the Holy Spirit,’ on 15th October 2011.’ I particularly asked to be baptised in Jesus’ Name, which I have become convinced is scripturally correct, because ‘Father, Son and Holy Spirit’ are titles or descriptions, and the Son’s name is Jesus Christ.
Acts 2:36-39 “Therefore let all Israel be assured of this: GOD made this Jesus, Whom you crucified, both Lord and Messiah.”
When the people heard this, they were cut to the heart and said to Peter and the other apostles, “Brothers, what shall we do.?”
Peter replied, “Repent and be baptized, every one of you, in the Name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of your sins. And you will receive the gift of the Holy Spirit.
The promise is for you and your children and for all who are far off – for all whom the LORD our GOD will call.”
This also acknowledged my increased revelation, knowledge, and understanding in a scripturally correct way: Acts 19:4-7 ‘Paul said, “John’s baptism was a baptism of repentance.” He told the people to “believe in the One coming after him, that is, in Jesus.” On hearing this, they were baptized in the Name of the Lord Jesus; when Paul placed his hands on them, the Hoy Spirit came on them, and they spoke in tongues and prophesied. There were about twelve of them in all.’
I have had many long discussions about Jesus, GOD, the Bible, Christianity, the significance of the seventh day Sabbath and Seventh Day Adventist Bible understanding, with business associate, Stan, who helped reveal more light and meaning. (Sadly he died a few weeks before I was baptised within the Seventh Day Adventist Church.)
Searching for meaning and answers on earth alone, only produces disappointment, and as said in Ecclesiastes --- all is meaningless, and in the end the only thing that matters is: Ecclesiastes 12:13b ‘Fear GOD and keep His commandments.’ (‘Fear’ in this sense means to hold in respectful awe and awesome respect.)
For those of us who are truly in a loving relationship with GOD there is a future so magnificent that we cannot even imagine it.
1 Corinthians 2:9 ‘No eye has seen, nor ear heard, nor has entered into the heart or mind of man, the things which GOD has prepared for those who love HIM.’
I am now free from the fear of death:
Hebrews 2:15 --- “and free those who, all their lives, were held in slavery by their fear of death.”
Death is only a sleep, until Jesus comes to resurrect all who are truly GOD’s loving children.
Jesus came to free us from the death sentence we are born into. No one else could do this. Jesus became one with us on this earth and entered into the ultimate horror of death from which we all shrink. He entered the realm of death, defeated its power and broke the fear of death, for all those who love and follow Him. He rose from the dead, and in doing so He not only paid our ultimate penalty, He defeated it so that only in relationship with and through Him can we ultimately enter eternal life.
My brothers and friends, having seen me explore many different spiritual areas, thought that Christianity would be just another passing phase of exploration. However they have now seen a changed and committed me who is consistently and passionately devoted to relationship with GOD. Now at long last (‘the best is last’) I have relationship with GOD and a passionate desire for my brothers, friends and everyone else in the world to have the same experience. I have found the answers to all my questions and I have found TRUTH itself. There is now nowhere else to go; only forever onward on this path.
I had also been seeking perfection, but have found that there is no such thing in this worldly life; there are types of ‘relative perfection’ but there is not ‘absolute perfection;’ this can only be found in GOD’s eternal Kingdom.
Looking back I can see that GOD allowed me to pursue many different experiences so that I have been able to learn so much about how people believe, think and relate in their different involvements, and which have made it easy to discuss relationship with GOD with people from many different backgrounds and belief systems. My varied and interesting journey has given me the background which now enables me to talk easily about Jesus and GOD from my own experience, and with compassionate relativity to them.
I have attended two Bible colleges, and have discussed many aspects of Christianity with members and pastors of different churches, which has given me a broad understanding of Biblical interpretation, different views, and discernment in identifying accuracy.
After thirty five interesting years of searching this was all a magnificent blessing with a very clear feeling of having arrived home at long last.
I can now see that what was, and is, wrong, and what was missing, stem from Adam and Eve’s rebellious, disobedient behaviour in the Garden of Eden; after allowing themselves to be convinced by Satan to ignore GOD’s loving instruction. GOD’s perfect creation was destroyed. I am now filled with massive appreciation, thankfulness and joyful reassurance that all that was lost through Satan can be regained through Christ. GOD will eventually restore absolutely everything to perfection for all eternity for those who love Jesus and HIM.
Jesus is my Creator, Saviour, Lord, Redeemer, Healer, Friend, Guide, and Brother.
GOD is, my eternal Father, my ultimate relationship, and my All in All.
FATHER, thank you so much for everything, including the total assurance I now have from YOU through Jesus, Who redeemed me from this fallen, compromised world, into YOUR Eternal Kingdom.
Christopher W. W. Ind.
I have prayed over and over for every woman I have let down over the years; and for every person I may have disappointed, offended, or hurt in any way.
I have forgiven absolutely everyone for everything – which includes people like Hitler and all others who have done shocking and terrible things. That does not mean I approve of such things, I definitely do not. I am not entitled to be the judge. I now know that GOD is the judge and HE will cope with each such person when they are resurrected to face HIS judgement and the consequences. No one gets away with anything.
In early 1994 I was looking through my kitchen window thinking as to how I wanted to be free from temptation, so I asked GOD to remove sexual vulnerability from me. I immediately felt something lift off me, almost with an audible ‘whoosh,’ and I felt free of it. So since then my body has been obedient and I have lived with the strength of control and freedom.
I had been led to write a book on Christianity, which I now intend to be placed on the internet as a website to inform and benefit people who are curious, searching, and seeking information and answers. My mind is on GOD and GOD-ly things, so everything else relates to that.
The website is: www.eternallytransformed.com
When I was a student at Saint Peter's College, the headmaster had been shown, by my English teacher, an essay which I had written as an assignment from English class. He was so impressed with it that he kept me in his office for nearly an hour to point out the talent which he said was apparent, and that I should consider pursuing writing, maybe studying journalism. I was not inspired by this at the time, I think I was seeking something more active than writing, so I did not respond to this suggestion, and in fact did not give it any further thought over the many years until around 2009.
My mother, in her later years, said to me, several times, that I should write a book, and three friends said the same thing, so I knew I was meant to do so. However I wanted it to be more meaningful than just being about my experiences, involvements, travels, and adventures. I wanted it to have a purpose, to offer people something of lasting meaning, and value, and which had GOD given value, which also glorified HIM.
I am at the computer every day writing it. I have registered several domain names but will let them all expire except one which I favour: eternallytransformed.com
My initial intention was to create a simple website showing the basic framework of what Christianity is all about, and why Jesus was on Earth; with the hope that people who did not want to talk about GOD could at least have a look at it; including people who are curious, searching, or just wanting to do their own searching without having to talk about it. GOD has clearly been leading me in this project.
I wanted it to be available free of charge, and I need the internet flexibility to continue adding to it, fine tuning it, making changes where necessary, and responding to questions, comments, and suggestions.
GOD is clearly leading me in it, and when I am working at it I feel a sense of purpose and peace, and the Lord saying to me: "Now you are doing what you are meant to be doing."
It has gone far, far beyond what I had in mind. It will now be available on the internet for anyone in the world who is searching, curious, questioning, looking for meaning, and truth, and looking for what Christianity is all about, and why Jesus was on Earth.
I now consider that the book I am writing, is the fulfilment of the one my mother and friends said I should write, and which is now becoming a reality in the meaningful and worth-while form that it was in my heart to be.
A scripture in Acts jumped out to me, with definite meaning, and perfectly describing my priorities and values.
Acts 20:24 ‘However, I consider my life worth nothing to me, if only I may finish the race and complete the task the Lord has given me; the task of testifying to the gospel of GOD’s grace.’
I often think about there only being two options available to humanity. One is the broad road leading to destruction and eternal non-existence. The other is the narrow road leading to eternal life - of blissful perfection and amazing privileges. I have such a strong desire for people to know; and for ways to inform them.
Matthew 7:13-14 ‘Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it.’
For all who qualify, home will be GOD’s Kingdom consisting of heaven for a thousand years, followed by life on the new Earth. All who are part of it will have the ability to travel anywhere in the total universe at the speed of thought. Life will be magnificent beyond imagination.
Firstly we need to qualify to be resurrected after death, which Jesus returns to carry out.
All who qualify will be given new, perfect, eternal (immortal) bodies.
The full explanation of all of this is within the 198 subjects that I have created for people to click on, of which some are quite short and others are quite long.
My mission is to introduce as many people in the world as possible to the realities of Christianity.
Satan has used countless strategies to pull people away from true Christianity. He has set up deceptions and traps which are so far reaching as to be almost unimaginable to the vast majority of the world’s population. His main instrument is the Catholic Church (Roman Catholic) which has a huge number of unsuspected ‘shop-fronts’ in the form of entities which operate in many different ways.
GOD, WHO knows everything, past, present, and future, always knew this would happen.
The Book of Revelation which is the last book in the Bible, covers the whole situation in chapters 12-18, which need at least a basic understanding of the symbolic wording which is from a dream that Daniel had, as described in Daniel chapters 7 & 8.
PLEASE read Revelation chapters 17 & 18, and knowing the background I have mentioned above, this chapter will give you a picture of it, even though some of it is in symbolic wording.
Please understand that, far from trying to push the Bible down people’s throats, this is absolutely crucial information.
My World View.
I see the whole physical world as fragmented -- broken apart -- washed apart -- and eroded.
This is obvious when one sees the bits and pieces of land, continents, islands, and peninsulas, which used to be joined together.
The worldwide flood of Noah’s time caused the majority of this, and washed so much of the nutrient and mineral rich soil into the oceans, which is why the oceans were and still are nutrient and mineral rich, despite the intrusion of other recent pollution.
I see the whole world in this way, and far more so, despite remaining patches and places of beauty; in the light of what true Christians can be sure of, and know we have ahead of us, beyond this temporary life; and that is an eternal life of GOD’S perfection and magnificence. Heaven and the new heavens and the new Earth will be far, far superior to what our present imaginations can dream of. With this in mind, and being so absolutely sure of it, has removed from me any real desire to travel, because I see the whole world as being so compromised and so much less than what it was at creation, and what it will be when re-created. Such a vision changes the perspective of everything.
All of GOD’s people, have such unimaginable magnificence to look forward to in eternal life, that it leaves this present world looking very ordinary. This is not being negative, it is just an observation whose accuracy will eventually be revealed.
I have chosen to learn as much as possible about the truth of GOD and relationship with HIM. This is by far the most important aspect and purpose of this temporary life; with a reward that is really far more than a ‘reward,’ of eternal perfection in every possible way.
Email from Apostle Karen Dunham, who established ‘Living Bread Church’ in Jerusalem.
From: karen dunham [mailto: firstname.lastname@example.org]
Sent: Sunday, 23 November 2014 3:15 AM
To: Christopher Ind
The Lord will speak to everyone who waits upon Him. This season your ears will be open, and His voice - like a river of living waters, will pour forth for you.It is amazing and awesome to hear Him speak.
Apostle Karen Dunham www.livingbreadchurch.com
Cell: 0528249290 USA 727-656-5286
On Thursday 30th March 2017 in the early hours 3am to 6am as I was lying in bed in Burleigh Waters, I was in deep reflection of what had been in my life, and what could have been, and the opportunities that have gone forever. GOD immediately showed me that my loss was my gain, because I had always been searching for HIM, perfection, and absolute truth; and that I had eventually found all three in ONE, which had happened at 2.51pm on 17th August 1993 (as in my testimony;) and with that outcome, everything else was justified. It does not justify my wrong decisions and wrong actions, but GOD justified all my previous directions by turning everything to good in my ‘Born Again’ experience.
Romans 8:28-30 ‘And we know that in all things GOD works for the good of those who love HIM, who have been called according to HIS purpose. For those GOD foreknew HE also predestined to be conformed to the likeness of HIS Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers. And those HE predestined, HE also called; those HE called, HE also justified; those HE justified, HE also glorified.’
If I had made certain different choices and decisions at any previous time, the outcome might have been quite different. Disappointments and remorse, together with happy memories, about many things, are covered by my life now being led by GOD and filled with HIS and Jesus’ Holy Spirit; giving me the fruit of the Spirit which are: Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Kindness, Goodness, Faithfulness, Gentleness, and Self Control. These are now my GOD led expressions of behaviour that inhabit and dominate my life now. I also now have the indwelling new perspective of the magnificence of eternal life and perfection to look forward to, following the temporary sleep of death. I have put my life completely in GOD's hands, HE is an infinitely better manager of it than I am.
Thank you Yahweh and Yeshua.
Psalm 40:8 “I desire to do YOUR will, O my GOD; YOUR law is within my heart.”
Jude 24-25 ‘To HIM Who is able to keep you from falling and to present you before HIS glorious presence without fault and with great joy, to the only GOD our Saviour be glory, majesty, power and authority, through Jesus Christ our Lord, before all ages, now and forevermore. Amen.
Revelation 3:10-13 "Because you have kept My command to persevere, I also will keep you from the hour of trial which shall come upon the whole world, to test those who dwell on the earth. "Behold, I am coming quickly! Hold fast what you have, that no one may take your crown. He who overcomes, I will make him a pillar in the temple of My GOD, and he shall go out no more. I will write on him the name of My GOD and the name of the city of My GOD, the New Jerusalem, which comes down out of heaven from My GOD. And I will write on him My new name. He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says to the churches."
On the night of the 19th June, 2016, I had been thinking about selling my antique furniture, and wondering which items I should keep; before moving to Queensland. The very instant I awoke in the morning, the crystal clear words in my head were:
“Jesus is everything, possessions are nothing.”
It was as if GOD had spoken them to me at that very moment, or that during the night HE had put the words in my head so that at the instant of waking they were immediately there for me. I was immediately relieved of doubt and questioning, and in that instant my thoughts were crystalized, and I decided, without hesitation, to sell them, as well as some other things I had become attached to.
I had absolute peace in having this confirmation from GOD; together with a feeling of being unburdened and free.